Learning to live with your shadows

How hard is knowing that I can never be otherwise. What happened there as an eternal shadow. Yet I appreciate all they chose to live. I take responsibility for what I chose and I smile when I remember what I did not choose, which came because I was wrong. I smile when I remember what I chose me. And I smile because it happened. For though the shadow is, everything else I am after having been otherwise, with me through the shadows. All the light that now fills me with everything that makes me smile, everything has to do with the self. Because I did not stay on the road just waiting for things to be solved. I fought and fought tirelessly to remove me to the depths of pain. Some were in the form of scars, others occur in the shade. But I turned off the TV in black and white. I do not see things one way or another. Today there are ghosts, possibilities. A colorful array of choices for me. And so I am because I fought. I guess the cliché message is "never give up." I prefer to say: "Learning to live with your shadows." And no more.